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yingxuan
singapore polytechnic (dac).
Friday, April 01, 2011
yet another random post.

i dont know why but its like something's suffocating me.
i feel like an ass contemplating about hopes and dreams when someone is out there contemplating about being unable to live. but i just can't stop being unsatisfied and empty.
i cry feeling touched by actions of kind ones but who am i to say "hey everyone should pray and hope positive endings would happen" when i don't believe it myself?
i'm being an ass to believe it for several tweets before looking at the fturp state i am in.

to love someone, you have to love yourself...
but do you think you have to help yourself first before helping someone?
or should you help someone even when u're life is fturped?

i'll #prayformichael because i believe in karma....
good things would come to me if im good.
but was this the karma i had for ever being bad?
because i don't see karma happening to the one who hurt me the most previously.
maybe i've forget that painful memory i once had
but i never forgave him....
must i forgive him to fully let this go?


too many questions... do i have forever to think about them?