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yingxuan
singapore polytechnic (dac).
Monday, May 04, 2009

i shouldn't love you but i want to, i just can't turn away. i shouldn't see you but i can't move i can't look away. and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not, cause i don't know how to make this feelings stop just so you know. thought you should know i've tried my best to let go of you but i don't want to, i just gotta say it all before you go... just so you know.

something had gotten to me that this has got to end. this thought didn't hit me the first time. i've always felt that this has got to stop or end. but i could never bring myself to do it. i've tried more than 3 times, but i always end up crying to myself.
once i felt relieve, i felt disappointment. it just hit me that this should stop.
either things do happen or it doesn't. this case i chose not to happen.


i gave myself away completely, but you just couldn't see me. cause someone else is in your head in your mind. and i'll never get to be where she would always be. my heart was waiting for the lie to come true, cause it's all so dark and mysterious. when the one you want doesn't want you too.
goodbye to you.