Rehab by Rihanna.


when we first met, i never felt something so strong. you were like my lover and my best friend all wrapped into one with a ribbon on it and all of a sudden you went and left. i didn't know how to follow. it's like a shock that spun me around and now my heart's dead, i feel so empty and hollow.
it was so true, you left me without knowing why. you left me without making me understand what i have done wrong. your sudden absence made me hollow, i couldn't even find anyone to confide in. there was once chemistry, some hidden chemistry that we held even at the first time we met or talked. you made me felt safe and free, relaxed and happy... you were once the ultimate best friend i guess.

and i'll never give myself to another the way i gave it to you, don't even recognize the ways you hurt me do you? it's gonna take a miracle to bring me back and you are the one to blame. now you're the reason why i'm thinking, i don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more. i guess that what i get for wishful thinking, should've never let you enter my door. next time you wanna go and leave i should just let you go on and do it. cause now i'm using like i bleed. it's like checking into rehab and baby youre my disease.
i've never treated someone like how i treated you. many exceptions made just because of you. but you never knew the things you did that hurt me. you never sensed my hurt, you never understand how hurt i was. you never knew the stuff i know that was hidden from me. i guess that is really what i get from wishful thinking. thinking you would always be my 24/7 best friend, my forever friend... thinking you would always be that close with me. and what i got was hurt and being left alone like a baby left without attention. now since i'm used to your come and go, your motive chats, i would just let you go on and dump me right there. cause i'm used to the tears, and used to the hurt.

damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept, you'd do anything for the one you love. cause anytime that you needed me, i'd be there it like you were my favourity drug. the only problem was that you was using me in a different way that i was using you. but now that i know that it's not meant to be you gotta go. i gotta wean myself off of you.
it is really crazy when you fall for someone. you'd do anything for them, even waiting for them to sleep at god-knows-what-time. throwing your tutorials aside just to be on the phone with them. leaving your friends and family just to have a little bit more time with them. to burst your limits just to be there always. anytime you needed me i was there. there wasn't a time you sms-ed me and i took years to reply. i was up at 4am just to accompany you through your insomnia hours. your guidebook to sleep was the accompany you had from me. and when i am having insomnia, who was the one throwing me aside like a garbage in a garbage bin? you used me, even i know i'll still let you take me for granted... i'm no logbook, i'm no yellowpages, i'm no tutor as an when you want. but you know i'll be there for you... i know everything was a lie, but i was just stupid to be willing to be following the path you planned.


when you remembered your promises please come back.
when you remembered that you still have to make it up to me, please come back.
you know i'll be waiting, till the day my heart doesn't skip a beat for you.

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