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yingxuan
singapore polytechnic (dac).
Saturday, November 01, 2008

pour me a glass of champagne
let me drink to my dismay
i feel so foolish, so stupid
i just want to drink it all away


i'll love to cry myself to sleep
and pretend that this is all a dream
but it'll never be,
because the picture is still with me.


i've been hit by the reality and truth
and is struggling to escape
as though i'm stuck on the roof


i've always thought he could that person
who could bring me out from the previous state of denial
but he ended up bringing me new false memories
that i'll have to stick to till he is finally forgotten


the first truth was shocking enough
but the second truth just kills me
kills me so much to want to lock myself in a room
to cry till he is being forgotten



i need some peace and quiet
to get me through
but his appearance doesn't seem to be helping much
F my stupid thoughts, F my stupid lies i created for myself