i just can't believe what a big step i took. even though i wasn't really there, i did took a lot of courage up to him. bloody hell. somehow once i did something, the next minute i would make myself feel damn foolish.
i don't understand what has got into me. after the phone call i just felt pierced, after the chat i felt even worst than not talking. it has all gotten through to me that whatever i do would seem so foolish to people around me and also to me. but i don't know why i still keep doing it. foolish, so so foolish. i shouldn't sound concern, worried and bothered. but i guess i did.


sitting here alone thinking it through
trying to convince myself that I'm not losing you
losing you is just too much for me to take.
the feeling was so strong, i don't even know where it all went wrong.
i know you don't care enough to try, but I'm not giving up this fight.
cause i can't stand losing you


in your sweetest torment, I'm lost
it's heartache every moment, from the start 'til the end
it's heartache every moment, baby with you
my home is in your arms, now its hollow and breaking my heart.


you tell everyone i'm just a friend, and i always be there to agree. i know you lied, but you still see me trusting you all over again..
your empty promises make me cry again and again
i stared at the board because that is the happiest moments in our relationship
the memories that i don't see them coming back.
when the day come when you know you hurt me, would be the day i know we are done.

10:32 PM •